When It Rains.....

It rains.

I've been watching some movies lately. Oh, you too? Or not so much? Either way - I tend to go in waves myownself.

And I've been listening to some music.

And reading some books.

And thinking "fuck. I'm such a slacker. I need to EXPRESS myself!" (Thanks Madonna)

I've had this blog reserved for..... AboutAMillionYears. And never posted.

So I'm this...Well, Girl. Although lately I've been trying on the "woman" label. Technically I've been a "woman" for a long time. Well, if you go by rites of passages (then the age would be 12). If you go by what I look like on the outside you would probably guess late 20's. If you go calendar years, then I'm 35. And what the F does any of that mean? Nothing.

I have 2 kids. I consistently am surprised that the older one is 7 (didn't I just yesterday get the scare of the 2 pink lines and revamp my life?. no? Well. It feels like it) and the younger one is 5. (5? Aren't I still in postpartum? Aren't I still adjusting to 2? no? Well. It feels like it)

And if you are like everyone else in my world, the answer to the next question on your tongue is:  yes/no/yes/no we are thinking of having a 3rd. Would I love to pregnant again? Erm..... Sometimes. Would I love to have another sweet, snugly baby in my arms.....? erm... Kinda.
Do I really want to bring another person into the world....? Shit - can you refill my martini and ask me in a moment?


I have a husband.
We're not exactly sure we should be together. We feel pretty great about the kids we've brought into this world, and 80-85% of the time feel like we are pretty great parents. (If you have a higher percentage in your own mind... Well. Awesome for you.. I think we've already met. You don't need to write me. : )
So the husband and I.
Well. Mostly we are pretty great. Mostly. Our bad, shady, would Shock-the-Church-Folks stuff though, is pretty juicy. And when we look at each other we mindfully think about how wonderful the other is. Very Mindfully. Very.

We're not really ready to split up though. But we're not really ready to be together either. And if you met us on the street. HAH! You would have no idea. Because we function really well together. And we look good together. Meaning aesthetically we look alright.

So here I am. Having this blog (although really I should journal. I loathe journal~ling though.  Lucky You Interweb - You get bits of my head instead!).

~Orange Girl